A little about "Precious Cargo"

The story “Precious Cargo” which part one is up on my website now, partial came from another book I started about a year ago titled “With these Chains” What inspired “With these Chains” was an article I read about slave trading. I was so repulsed to learn that this really goes on, but more so by how many lives are damaged by this every year. “With these Chains” has been by the far the hardest book I ever had written up this point, so much in fact it is hard to finish. The pain and suffering I have to put the main character through was uncomfortable to write, but it needed to be in there to show the horror of his situation. I never put violent or sexual scenes in a book if they don’t further the plot. I will finish this book hopefully sometime next year. The powerful message of kindness and love to overcome such overwhelming obstacles is quite beautiful. “With these Chains” is a contemporary novel and “Precious Cargo” is fantasy. “Precious Cargo” is about Remau’s dream of finding a little kindness. He was born on the slave planet Neve. This planet’s only purpose is to produce obedient slaves. Most are use for manual labor, but the ones with exceptional beauty are trained to be pleasure slaves. “Precious Cargo” is far less violent than “With these Chains” There is no need for it in the story. Remau has trained to be a slave and therefore is expected to endure what his owners want to do to him. Gaven for “With the Chains” was trick into become a slave, and his trainer is a sadistic piece of human debris.

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Normally I shy away from telling anything really personal, but I feel like I should share this. A couple of months ago I was diagnosed with depression. Everyone who knew me was shocked by this. I have to admit I was too. I knew something wasn’t right. I did seem to lose my normal zest for everything. But I assumed my thyroid levels were off again, no big deal. I am the kind of person who works around things. Then the sleep trouble started and I was averaging only a couple hours a sleep a night. If anyone has ever had a sleep problem you know how this disrupts your life. My writing suffered the most I just couldn’t seem to focus. I went to the doctor for my sleeping problem, he asked a ton of questions and took blood test etc. When he came back with the diagnoses of chemical depression I had to ask him just what in the heck was that? The chemicals in my brain were off due to the constant stress I was under and unexpressed anger. I trust my doctor so I begin taking meds for this depression. At first nothing really happened, but slowly I started to sleep good again, the brain fog started to lift and I started to feel like myself again. I didn’t realize just how bad my depression was until the meds started to work. Thankfully I only have to take the meds for about 6-9 months. I really hate taking meds. But I have learned something from all of this. I am not wonder woman and I should really listen to my body and not to push aside negative feelings. I need to reduce the amount of stress in my life and learn to tell people hey you’re pissing me off. I tend to let my anger build until I explode. I have to learn to vent my anger. Reducing stress will be hard I have so much coming at me at once. It’s not so much my career it’s more my personal life. I have two teenage boys and a ten year old daughter. If you have children you know how stressful being a mother is. My husband is a big source of my stress and so to is keeping my household running smoothly. Slowly I am learning to approach things differently, express myself more clearly. And I have to tell you it feels fucking good.

I started writing “A Song for My Warrior” before I was diagnosed. I struggled with this book at first so I just set it aside. I loved the character Alistair and wanted to make sure I did him justice. When I plotted the book out right after “A Warrior’s Will” was released I was really excited about the story. I wanted to wait until I had that excitement back before I wrote another word. Then a month or so later after I began my meds, I sat down to write a short story that was batting around in my mind, all of a sudden the storyline for “A Song for My Warrior” started to weave itself. I started writing that day and ended up writing for four hours. That same excitement for my book filled me and I knew it was time to focus on this book. You have no idea just how wonderful it felt to sit down at my computer and write everyday like I use to do. I knew then I was well on the road to recovery.

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I have a started this blog to talk about what's going on in my writer's mind. What influences, drives or inspires me to write. How one picture, a song, a moment, etc, will spark an entire story.
My blog will be a little strange to say the least. Its one part dream journal, one part wailing wall, and one part to whatever is on my mind at the moment.
I have to admit it's more for me than anything else. But I do invite you to read and post if you wish. My blog is adult oriented, so no one under 18 years of age will be allowed to post.
I am not sure how much or how often I will be posting, but I will be checking my blog everyday. I have always been hesitant to start a blog, my life is pretty ordinary. Blogging quite honestly makes me a little nervous. I don't want to appear as though I am full of myself that is far from the case. It’s just my little corner of cyberspace : )